Charades

I sometimes feel like my life is a charade. I don’t know why but sometimes, I think people say and do things they don’t really mean. Like when they say they don’t like somebody, I think they just say it because everyone’s general opinion of the person isn’t good. It makes me think twice about who I should trust. I don’t know if I’m just paranoid but really, I am starting to learn on really thinking before speaking. Sometimes, I feel like I should just keep my mouth shut because I really don’t know who would tattle and who would not. I don’t care anymore if this takes me out of my usual social circle because I really feel like a hypocrite when I do stuff that I hate.